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Date : Monday, September 2, 2013
Time : 06:01 Title : What are we?
I always wonder, if we are really family members. I mean, can't you sense whether if I'm feeling bad or not? Despite us living under the same roof for nearly 1 decade? Like seriously, brother locking up the room, father keep pestering me with his bullshits, grandma asking me to eat her shit food though I always just eat it down and a uncle that doesn't seems to welcome me nor like me. Never really ask if I'm fine or not. I'm pretty sure that next time when I grow up, I'm gonna to get a apartment for myself and my mother and of course my husband. I won't want to invite my dad, grandma nor uncle. Say that I'm unfilial, say that I don't have respect for them, but whatever. I'm tired of caring all your bullshits. I'm really tired from all this emotional breakdowns that I just wanna get away from all of you. I'm really tired, both physically and emotionally. I will still smile, but FYI, you guys won't be part of why I smile. :)
Date : Thursday, July 11, 2013
Time : 03:39 Title : You go your way, I go my way.
Seriously? What kind of brother are you? You're like the worst I've ever seen. You are like some fucktard. Keep digging up the past to talk about it? It's just $500 but you still traveled a lot more than me right? You're fucking calculative you know? I wonder why you even have a girlfriend. I even think that your girlfriend, an outsider is so much nicer than you. You're like some piece of shits. Ew, fucking disgusting you know? Like seriously? You might as well just die and forget it man. Seriously, you bring her home, do you know how much inconvenience you're causing us? NO. Fucker, just die alright? Or rather, faster enter army and don't ever come out again. It's like everyday is my fucked up day if I ever see you. Like just now, seriously. After you've a girlfriend, whatever fucking shit I say, you give a damn? No bro. You're seriously not my brother anymore. How I wish that I was never related to you. If possible, I hope someone can tell me that we're seriously not related at all. I would love for other people to my brother. You're worst than shit you know? Know why? From today on, I'm going to fuck care everything you do or say. It is none of my business. I'm washing my hangs off you. You've made me very disappointed, in you. Goodbye, fucking brother, useless brother, calculative brother. We're done here, once and for all.
Date : Wednesday, January 2, 2013
Time : 06:30 Title :
Just feeling that, all the shits happened today. Not even a single friend in school, nobody misses me in secondary school, nobody to even talk to, can't even handle a single conversation with them. What is going on in the world? Just felt that, I shouldn't be part of all this. I would rather go out somewhere on my own, and be free from everything. I don't want to see anybody. I don't want to care about anyone. I just wanna live in my own dream world. Only there, I can be free from everything..
Date : Friday, November 9, 2012
Time : 06:23 Title : A shitty brother like you, don't worth anything at all.
I'm just wishing one day you would enter the army and never come out again. I'm sick and tired of your face. Always giving those attitudes as if you're the head of the house in here. You disgust me a lot. You aren't fit to be a human or my big brother at all. I don't need someone like you in my life nor in my family. Pointless. Just thinking about all the things I did for you, you can never use your ten fingers to count them. However, things you did for me, I can just use the amount of subjects I take for exams. You know why? Because the things you did for me, are all shits. You are really worse than any dogs out there. Sorry, wrong choice of words. You are worse than a beast. A useless and lazy one. Every single day, you only know how to sit on that useless piece of chair and touch those pointless electronics things. You're so sickening now. You're an eye sore to me, not only me, but everyone. Just to let you know, you're really worthless to me now. Don't expect me to play with you like how I used to play with you. You're the most retarded person I've seen on earth. You're worse than any retards on earth. You are like a, idiot, dumb-ass, bimbo? I don't even know what words to describe you because you're very pathetic. You don't worth anything in my eye now. Don't worry, whenever I buy anything for the family, there won't be any share for you. You find it useless and you don't like it. Then what for people thought of you when they wanna buy things for you? It is so you will appreciate things around you, however you're so dumb to even tell them, buy for fuck? Oh c'mon, do you even know what it called ; thoughts that counts? No you don't, pathetic dumb-ass. Too pathetic to even know it, you're even pathetic than those whom you call them useless, pathetic or whatever shit. You're one of the most idiotic person I've seen on earth. I wish one day, you will see this blog here. So you will know how pathetic you've become and you're the worst brother on earth. Not even fit to be in the family or my brother or this world. Just get into that army and never come out. I wish you'll fail in the army and be a pathetic guy that gets bully by people whom they think you like shit to me. May be even worse than shit. So, I won't have to see that shitty face of yours anymore.
Date : Tuesday, September 18, 2012
Time : 04:34 Title :
Hey! It's been a while since I last blogged anything. So, first of all to start with, my 'N' are coming! It's on the first week of October! I'm kinda, nervous and yet, I'm thinking about how I should have fun after my major exams. Weird girl, however, I don't intend to give up now and just think about fun. Asking friends for help, it's common. Not asking friends for help are also common. However, the first choice would be a better one. There're things in the world whereby you, alone, will never be able to accomplished. You need do your very best before asking people for help. Because, you're just practically getting people to help you rather than asking. Getting people to help you and asking people to help you are two different matters. Why do I say it this way, by getting them to help, means you want them to do it for you and not yourself. By asking them, means getting advice from them and do it. It's typical that people are always getting people to help you. So, do think twice about how you want them to help you! But, you must depends on what things you're asking for help. (: Physically wise, getting help would be correct. But when you are to make a decision, asking help would be a wiser choice. =]
Date : Saturday, June 30, 2012
Time : 05:11 Title : Why can't you understand me more ..?
Why cant you understand me more? It's not like I purposely do it. But, I know its my fault for not telling, but you could ask me right? It does mean that, I never say, means I want you to ask me right? And yet, I'm happily waiting but ended up get scolded for nothing. And you even tell them behind my back. But when she called me and tell me those things, I was very upset and angry. I didn't know what else can I do. All I can do is just cry alone. However, I'm even more upset that she sided you than understand my situation. And I totally forgot that you would actually tell her. To me, it's like backstabbing me. And, I didn't even tell her anything so I could lessen her stress, and yet you this bloody dog, like a bastard go and tell her about it. How dog can you be? For me, it's like you are being damn fucking immature to tell her about the things. Don't know how to settle yourself? Only know how to complain behind people's back. I really feel that you are the worse dog ever. How I wish that you were just a child that were found from inside a dustbin. Do you know how much I wish that you were not my sibling? I feel damn unlucky and embarrassed that you're one my sibling. Forget it, no point for me to say this already. You've officially given up on me, and I have officially given up on you of that thinking you will help me and yet, nah, I should just give up on thinking that way. Forget it, don't want to pour anymore out..
Date : Thursday, June 21, 2012
Time : 07:21 Title : What a beautiful day ~
Good evening! Guess what! I had lots of fun today with band mates! Weeeee! It's been long ever since I had some fun together with the people I love! Hahaha! Well, today started off with buying the shoes, at first was a huge mess as everyone is like, talking here and there, so messy~ Argh, don't like it at all! >_< Though it is just me who find it very noisy! Hahaha! Then after that, we went to Macdonald and have our lunch there, well, was talking all the way, all was chit-chatting! Hahaha! All eating together and talking and laughing and all the fun things you can think of! Hahaha! Then after that, slowly all the juniors left after eating and some of us stayed to play catching at the hub! WAHAHAHA! IT'S SO FUN THAT I RAN LIKE HELL TODAY! IT FEELS SO REFRESHING RUNNING CATCHING EACH OTHER AND THE MOST EXCITING PART WAS, WHEN YOU ARE THE RUNNER, YOU SEE THE CATCHER, AND THEY STARTED CHASING YOU! Oh my gosh, scared the hell out of me! But still, had lots of fun today! Hahaha, afterwards when I reached home, was happily tweeting about the things that happened today, then till I saw some unhappy things.. Just found out some news about me.. I didn't know that she would hate me this much that she wants to forget all about me. But, all I want is just to see her smile and be happy everyday. But now I'm like the only one who is making her angry, sad, upset and crying too. I felt really bad about this, that I really don't know what I should do. I even tried ways not be close to her like, hanging out with another clique, so that I would not affect her mood so much. And somehow, I feel that, she has only been upset because of my presence. My presence is of a big effect on her. Maybe I should just, get out of her life. Since that she doesn't need me anymore, all she needs is just her boyfriend, her friends and the band mates attention. I'm nothing to her at all. All the times we spent together are just nothing to her at all. And, I've thought about it, maybe I should just disappear from her life. Since I'm such a bothersome, even if we were to settle this matter, I doubt that it would be peaceful. It might just make it even worse, worse of all, if she thinks in another way, means that she really will hate me to the core. Currently now, I can sense that she hates me 70% from what I've heard and see. So.. maybe I should just excuse myself from her life, so that her life would be all peaceful and fun again, without me. I AM JUST A SOMEONE WHO WILL BOTHER HER LIFE, I AM USELESS AND A NOBODY, SO SHE WOULDN'T CARE ABOUT WHAT HAPPENS TO ME OR WHAT I DO. Whatever that I did till now, are like shits. Nobody sees it, nobody sense it and nobody cares about it. It's like, doing useless things which have useless effects. Haha, I feel so dumb now. How I wish I can just disappear from this world, and go to a world whereby it's my own world where I can control everything myself. So that, that world of mine, would be peaceful and fun without any disturbance. HAHAHA, as if such world do exist. But please, if this world really do exist, please bring me the way there. I just wanna escape to a place whereby I would be happy everyday, without any worries or disturbance. Like I said, a peaceful life whereby I have nothing to worry about, and no one would worry about what would happen to me! What a beautiful world and yet, it is filled with darkness all over. I know that, one day, I would disappear from your life... (: Because, I am not your friend anymore, and you don't treat me as one anymore. Hahaha, I feel so pathetic now! I'm the only who feel this way and you just hate me and that's all you know! Alright, that's all I have to say for now! :D Nights!
Date : Tuesday, June 19, 2012
Time : 08:11 Title :
Hey guys! Today was the last 2nd rehearsal for Ignite! Hehe, well lots of shit happen today but, I still had fun together with my band mates as well as the other performing art groups! Well, we started off with having one last rehearsal in school before heading off to plmgs for the rehearsal. Ok, so when we were at Peicai, things went fine, doesn't seem to have troubles. Afterwards, when we were at plmgs, things sort of, went out of control. Things started dropping down, people not cooperating with us, well, was pretty fed up. Or, should I say that I was totally fed up with all of them? Some even came asking me what happen, so.. you expect me to just rant my anger at you? Sorry, not my style. (: I would rant it with someone I close to, but I didn't wanna rant at them was basically because, I don't want to affect their happy mood, so just let things go on as per normal. Some times really, they really need to learn self-discipline. They are like.. even more worse when they were at in school. It's horrible, I don't mean anything but, it was really horrible. Even me myself, get irritated by it, no matter who did it. Everyone was just too concern about themselves, and once they move THEIR things out, they just stand there like a wood block. And just leave the other sections out on the stage, when we don't even have much time to move. Correct that if there's lots of people moving it, it will be messy. But please, try to make an effort of doing it. And not just, after you move, stand there and chat with your friends. OMG, i shouldn't even care about this at all. But, I needed a place to rant all my angers now. If not, someone will just be my victim. I swear, I will just rant and rant and rant till I'm happy! HAHAHA, but still, our finale was quite good, but we are somehow late or something! Oops, but we did ran k! Finally, what really enlighten me today was, when my main conductor came down, he really helped us to get the idea of what we are suppose to do. And somemore, the steps that he taught us, was really wonderful! Actually, we did thought of those moves but just not how we are suppose to put them together. With just a click from his fingers, he can easily blend everything together and look more wonderful in a way! But, can tell that, our band is kinda getting more and more enthu about our 2nd part performance! So, therefore I will be even more enthu to brighten up their mood into making it better! I SHALL NOT GIVE UP! I WILL DO MY BEST FOR THEM! C'MON PEICAI CONCERT BAND! YOU ARE THE BEST! I KNOW YOU CAN DO IT! LET'S SHOW EM' WHAT WE GOT! ^^ JIAYOUS PEICAI! WE ARE JUST LEFT WITH 10 MORE DAYS TO IGNITE! WE CAN DO IT! WE CAN DO IT! WE CAN DO IT! WEEEEEE CANNNNN DOOOOOO ITTTTT!!!
Date : Monday, June 18, 2012
Time : 03:43 Title :
Hey guys! It's been long since I last posted anything! Hahaha! Anyways, my life have been busy with band! Recently, my school has a concert on the 29th of June, so I'm kinda excited. Hahaha, it's because it's gonna be my last year on the band as their leader as their player. Since we are the seniors, we are stepping down from our posts, and the little ones would take over for us, and of course, the little ones, I've utter faith in them! Since, I know them well and also, they have the potential to do anything as long as they are together. And of course, needless to say, they are always united as one. No matter what obstacles comes to them, they are always united together as one. That's what I love about em'! Adorable little ones, I'm here supporting you guys! So don't be afraid to do anything, as long as you have confidence, faith in yourself, as well as the rest of you in the band, you will surely be the shiniest band ever! I promise you that because, you guys are the one whom have show to me that, no matter what happens, we can always break through the obstacles and complete what was given to you! Hahahaha, if anyone of you from the band sees this, please keep it a secret! (: Doubt that they would be touched too! Cause it's too mushy for them! HAHAHA! Adorable kids, I love you! Can I say this? Mummy loves you of who you are!
Date : Friday, April 20, 2012
Time : 07:37 Title : I don't really believe in myself that I'm actually falling back in love for you.
Can you understand? When I went up to your house, my mind is filled with excitement. As if, I'm really entering into some mythical place which filled me with excitement. I do not know why I'm feeling this way, but. One thing for sure. I might be falling in love with you again. I do not wish to hurt myself. However, I've tried to think that, we are just really close friends. Those close friends where we would do things together. But still, my miind just can't stop thinking about you now! Even though I said I would accept you after my final concert, I doubt I can now. Since you are like treating me as your girlfriend when I did not even said anything about it. What do you call this? Take things for granted? Exactly. You're just too full of yourself thinking that I would surely be yours. But I'm sorry, think again. Just one wrong step, everything will be gone for you. However, you might be that guy which I want anymore. You aren't even try hard to study and even paying attention in class. Sometimes I wish you would just get out of school. Seriously, no point for you to be staying in school, just to use your bloody phone. What for come to school just to play games and get on with it? Seriously, you even more worse than anyone who enjoys playing than studying. At least others are smart, without studying, they still able to pass. But, ask yourself. Are you smart? Are you like them? Are you trying hard? None at all, I'm sorry to say this but, I guess there is no hope for you. Not even for you to go ITE, just get a lousy job and get on with it. You're rich what, so can just take money from your parents what. To you, it's nothing at all. Since you have never eaten any hardship. Just wait till you grow old, and you have no money for anything! Then you will understand how it feels to earn money when it's hard in the society! Get the facts right, not everyone is willingly to help you. Since you are in secondary school now, friends help you to cope with it. As you enter poly or either JC, sorry, no one gonna help you. You are just gonna be like a handicap person who can't even do anything by themself. Just accept the facts that you've no mjore hope. Just go ahead and fail. I won't really care, since you are not that important to me at all. (: Back to topic! Hope this sunday, I have the chacne to meet you! Even though I'm super shy now! How could I even meet you when me myself is scared! Not scared of you, but feels awkward! Well then, will see how it goes! Goodnights, lovelies! <3 |
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